I had a funny experience today as I coached with a team on Zoom. I share this with permission from that group.
We were discussing the possible return to the workplace and what they had learned about their time working from home.
C shared that she stocks up her fridge to give her an excuse to get out of the house and go to the grocery store. She leaves the house to buy food, for the sole purpose of giving it away. She just wants to be seen by people and she wants to do something for others who will then see her as valuable. Without this activity, she said she feels “bad.”
This is what she “needs” because she is “just that way.”
Her words made my ears perk up.
“Say more,” I said.
She went on to describe that in addition to the grocery store outings, she has worked like a dog lately, even with her toddler.
She speaks to her supervisor almost daily and has been out and about, doing whatever parts of her job that she can.
She stays active and solves problems as a way of dealing with quarantine and her unmet need for validation.
Competency is her Enneagram type’s way of dealing with life.
And then there’s the going to the grocery store so that she can give away food.
Self-Deceit is what separates her Enneagram type from reality. If she can feed her ego by being a really fantastic worker and being of service to her friends and neighbors, then she can deny (for now) the feeling, conscious or not, that she is inadequate.
With that, T showed us his stocked pantry closet. Multiple boxes and canisters of many items. No fewer than 10 containers of instant coffee (that he did not want shown).
He shared that he feels anxious if he doesn’t know he has what he “needs.”
He, too, says that he is “just that way.”
Last March, the last meeting I had before I no longer consulted on-site in organizations, was with this man. He was telling me to take all of my money out of the bank; we needed to have cash on hand because we’d lose everything if “Coronavirus really took off.” He had a very clear plan, as if he’d been thinking about this forever.
Because he had.
He has been concerned about security and safety his whole life. He really wants to know what’s real, so he sugar-coats nothing.
He assumes you want the same.
He really wants others to meet him where he is; to respond to him with the same level of emotion that he is putting out there. This is his type’s way of dealing with difficulty.
His emotional realness was really pushing my positive outlook’s buttons that day.
He was very clear on what had to be done and was sharing his “facts” with everyone in the office; even those of us who didn’t want to hear it.
Angst is what separates his Enneagram type from dealing with reality. If he can feel anxious about something happening in the future, he doesn’t actually have to deal with the present.
And then there’s me.
I am no fan of grocery shopping. But I want what I want when I want it. I want to be happy and I don’t want to feel the pain of not having what I think I need. I want people around me to be happy, too. If they are happy, I am happy.
One complaint can throw my whole mood off. My desire is not really altruistic; it is all about me.
Because my type demands “happiness” as a way to feel safe, I can easily assume everyone else has an intolerance for anything less than “wicked happy,” too, right?
As I shopped in March, I told myself that I had to buy everything they want or need, and with that, “We’ll all be GREAT!”
Positive outlook is my type’s way of dealing with difficulty.
All of my fridges and freezers were STOCKED. Before you go yelling at me, I already know. And don’t forget that I had 7 people quarantined with me.
Yes, I am a walking COVID meme.
Gluttony is what separates my Enneagram type (read: my personality) from reality.
If I have enough love, food, furniture, or office supplies, I can deny the pandemic.
So all this time, I’ve had trouble describing why your Enneagram type and the tool of the Enneagram is helpful to have.
In our coaching group today, we had lots of laughs, but we also unpacked how our Enneagram type predicts the issues that will come up for us and cause us to suffer.
It also predicts the things that motivate us and bring us closer to Presence. As a spiritual tool, it give us something to pray about, to meditate on, and a North Star to set intentions around.
More than anything, it identifies the lens that, when not present, exhausts us, upsets us, and keeps us afraid.
Once we see that, we can make choices about our next steps. Until we see that, we are walking around the world, unconscious, telling people
“That’s just the way I am.”